Wednesday, January 29

.My Randomness 66 : My Fifth Shade of Rascal Bear




To start my year with a little bit happiness in my life, I would like to introduce my annoying yet lovable dog Rascal. Technically its my cousin's dog but somehow at home we all kind did raise him.
When my mother told my cousin brought a dog in the house, at first I did not believe it at all. I just ignored it. But as the dog grow up and make those annoying barks inside the house, my ignorants became my reality. Dont get me wrong i do love dogs especially corgi dogs. I know everyone has opinion about raising pitbull and how people in general think they are dangerous. Honestly I, myself too believe there are dangerous but until I've learned that not all of them. I just it's how they are raise them and how you treat them with respect. They can be a fun loving dogs too.
Then from time to time i enjoy hanging out with the cutie puppy.
He may be a little bit wild because he's not train enough, but i did manage to teach him how to shake hands, lay down, and gives high fives. I love the little boy. I never thought my parents would like him too. My dad likes talking to him and when i pick up my mom after her work, the dog waits for us at the door, waiting for some treats.

My cousin named him rascal but i call him rascal bear or brown bear. Look at him, he's a natural when it comes to posing for the camera. A smaller fun-size bear. ^^
But i do have one wish from him. I want to hug. I mean like train him to hug me when i say "hug me". Maybe i just needed that companion. I do get a lot of hugs from friends and my booboo. But you know i'm awkward with people hugging for no reason and sometimes i do want that hug in other shape form. Hahaha that sounded lame.

Anyway well that's all for now....

I hope you guys enjoy a little random short blog post from me.

Until next time,


Friday, January 24

.My JOURNAL 87: `13 NEW YEARS CHALLENGE


Overall 2013 was the biggest challenging year I ever experienced. It started off really good, a promising future in my hand, but suddenly in the mid-year, I had some set backs and I did a lot of blaming games to myself as well. I hated my life at one point and I just pretending to be fine with everything.

As time progressed, my life became a big mess. Thinking why am I in this position again. There are a lot of ups and downs. As stupid at it may sounds like, 2013 was a mixture of love and hate to tell you the truth.


But anyhow, let's just forget about the meaning of hate in 2013, but focus on something more love in 2013. It just that I don't want to start my 2014 with my negative thinking like it was before.

So if you guys don't mind and still want to read my new year challenge, I must warn you guys to use your mouse properly and your scroll down button is not broken, its just that this blog post is going to be long long long overdue blog post.

It took me almost the whole month of January to edit all the pictures into collages, luckily i finished it.

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A. 13 THINGS HAPPENED TO ME LAST YEAR 









B. 13 PHOTOS OF MEMORIES LAST YEAR 

C. YOUR NEW YEAR'S GOALS

  GETTING A NEW JOB!
One of my main priorities this year is getting myself a new job. I do want to get a job in a places where I could grow as an individual and also that suitable for my career. I want a job that I could be proud of myself and say I am an independent woman. So dream job here I GOooo!

TO LOVE ME
      Basically i want to be happy of the idea of being alone. I want to tell myself that I can be and will be okay being alone. Doing things that are actually good for my own sanity and know how to love myself more.

LOSING WEIGHT -45LBS or MORE
    Losing weight and eating clean food is one of my priorities too this year. I know I can do it again. I just need to be patient this time. Going back to track of exercising regularly and eating food that are good for my tummy. I want to do this, not just because people look down on me, doubt me and sometimes humiliate me just because I'm a big girl; I'm doing this for myself to feel in control, and be confident with my own skin.

TO BLOG AND BLOG AGAIN!
   I want to write at least 6 blog post every month. I want my blogspot to be my main page and stop distracting myself from ig and fb.

START THANKFUL NOTEBOOK/ PLANNER BOOK
       Starting this month i'm going to keep a note book filled with thank u notes. Notes that i want to be thankful for and not take anything in my life for granted. I need that assurance in my life that I can believe in myself.

D. A PHOTO OF YOURSELF FROM 2012 NEW YEAR'S EVE AND LAST YEAR'S EVE!

E. A LIST OF WHAT YOU WANT TO CHANGE THIS YEAR. 

MY SLEEPING HABITS
MY EATING HABITS
MY ATTITUDE IN MY LIFE
BE MORE CONFIDENT
BE MORE FRIENDLY TO PEOPLE
MY INTEREST IN MY BF'S LIFE GOALS

F. A LETTER TO A PERSON YOU GREW APART FROM LAST YEAR...

TO MY D FOREVER:
What can i say, over the years I would never image that we will lose our connect between the two of us. But i guess that connect wasnt strong enough to keep us from growing apart from each other. Even though we try to communicate from time to time, its hard because we have this gap and somehow we cant relate with each other now. And you do know that i'm not that type of person to seek for anyone friendship. And hopefully you do know too that i want to see you happy even if its mean that im not part of it anymore. I still consider you as one of my close friend. The memories we had, i will always carrier in my soul and no matter what i will never forget the friendship you and i shared.

G. PEOPLE WHO YOU GOT REALLY CLOSE/THANKFUL FOR...

My Bear family.
    You guys are now my new sets of friends that i'm hoping to keep for a long time. we have our moments and I want to thank you guys for all the laughter and craziness you have shared with me. I want to get to know you guys more.

ROMEO
Hi Mang Romeo :) i want to thank you for listening to my unending drama in my life and being like a grandfather to me. I want to thank you for all the laughter and stories you shared with me and being a cool partner at work. I really enjoyed working with you.

CARLO
Ah Yo Carlo! I just want to thank you for the new friendship. Thank you for understanding me at times when im selfish and a big cranky girl towards you. You were there for me when I need someone to support me emotionally and mentally. You are one of my reasons why I survived the year of 2013. Our long night of chatter at starbucks and the roadtrips we had when we hangout. I'm really glad I met you.

HD CLASSMATES
Hi my fellow HD classmates! I'm thankful for all of you guys for being a fun class. Without you guys I wouldn't never thought I could survived the 5 am class we had and the after school studying. I loved our food trips and road trip for our exit exam in LA. Also the support we had for each other was really unbelievable.

H. A LIST OF YOUR 2014 WISH LIST ITEMS. 
1. Rilakkuma Polaroid Camera or Films
2. Dell XPS 12
3. Urban Decay Naked 3 Palette
4. Massenger or Tote MK Bag
5. High Cut Wedge Black Toms Shoes
6. Rainbow Gel Pens
7. Lomography Fisheye Camera
8. Couple Sweaters
9. Wishbone Necklaces
10. Q & A Book
11.  New Real Technique Brush Set
12. Instyler Rotating Iron-Wet 2 Dry
13. Pink Mountain Bike
14. 2013 Kia Soul Pink Cover Seats

I. YOUR NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

My new years resolution is to find that balance in my life again. I need to find some stability in my life in order for me to fulfill all my goals. I need to have more confident with what I got and stay humble at the same time.
Take risks and do a lot of first time in my life. I only live once, I must own it and it's about time I make the best out it.

Never let hatred get into my heart. Even if it hurts me, i just want to be in control with my emotions and not to be irrational with all my decision. I have to stay focus on what I want in my life and let life takes me where i needed to be. Even if it's temporary or permanent in my life. Don't let negative thinking get in away of my dreams.

Forgive and forget my life in 2013 and go slowly but steady towards my goal in life for 2014.

Well that's my 2013 New year Challenge.

I know it's a long blog post and what a year it was for me.

Hope you guys enjoy reading my blog post today and hope you all have a wonderful beginning this year. =)

Until next time,